Journey with Special Needs Children

Lately I’ve been wondering why am I always so worried about things that are out of my control. A little insight, I only have one child and he is autistic, I myself am an only child as well. As I about to enter into a new school year with my son, my mind is racing a million miles an hour. I start to think if I don’t help my son get to be independent one day what is going to happen to him the day that I am gone? He has no cousins, no brothers or sisters, so he will be left all alone when I am no longer here. The thought of this is daunting, and I can’t stop thinking about it. It is like a plague in my mind. I don’t really know what to do except to keep myself in good health to be around for him as long as possible, and while I’m here to help him as much as possible, but the thought of him being alone just scares the heck out of me. And sometimes I lay awake in bed all night thinking about. I know it is really out of my control, but I still can’t help but wonder. All I want for him is to be ok, I only wish for him to be happy and healthy. I love him so much that I don’t want anything bad to happen to him, in fact if all the bad things could just happen to me I would be ok with it. It is 4:36 in the morning where I am at and this is what is on my mind. I wish for all the parents that are currently feeling like me that you may find some peace and not go crazy over the unknown like me.

sincerely- overly concerned mom