Journey with Special Needs Children

Feeling defeated……Does anyone else feel that way? The reality is finally setting in. As I finish reading my son’s IEP report to transition him into kindergarten, I can’t help but feel defeated, sad, worried, discouraged, and most of all hopeless. Reading that your child is severely delayed in everything and the amount of support he will need is astronomical is unreal. I knew that he had developmental delays, but never in my mind did I think of it as extremely severe. To say in all the categories that the school district have evaluated him in, he scored either severely low or extremely low, and at this point there’s no difference between the two. A million things are racing through my mind right now and I can’t sleep, and I feel like I can’t breathe. And now I’m wondering to myself, can I even help my son? I don’t know what most parents with neurotypical kids want for their children’s future, but for a mom like me who has a child on the spectrum, all I want for him is to be ok in the future. So what doe that mean? I don’t need my son to obtain any fancy degrees, land any fancy jobs with fancy titles, I just want him to be able to hold down a job he may like, have a family is he wants to, just be able to be live his life independently without help. Is that too much to ask? Can I get him there? These questions run around like circles in my head everyday. Somedays, I feel great and I think I can do it but on days like this I am losing my mind and losing hope. So I just want to know, is someone out there feeling like this? Would love to hear and read your thoughts.

Sincerely- overly worried mom